There's just this grouchiness in me
Whenever i've got tons on hand
and there's a whole lot of things done inefficiently around me.
Including myself.


Can't they get straight to the point during discussions and meeting.
Is this really necessary?
Why events always end late.
Why can't i finish this on time.
Why can't this and that.

And today is just another of such days.
So stay away.
Unless u wanna contribute to the haze.



 

When i'm blind to my ways,
There, Your spirit will pray.


It's week4.
I'm still pretty lost about everything.
pretty blur about what is taught in class.
And of course its readings after readings.
i've got about another 2 weeks before my midterm test week.


I find it so difficult at times.
To balance everything in life.
I spend my sunday evenings to friday in school.
And saturday is reserved for church.
And sunday is for family + tutorials.
I seem to be unable to afford anything more.
:S


I haven been able to visit my grandma since school started.
:(


Its in such times,
when I feel like the things i do seem so worthless.
I drag myself through 5disgusting day of school.
And when im back in e east, i can't do much for people around me.


But my Lord has been kind to me.
In difficult times, His comforting hands never left me.
and i take consolation in that.
 

                  

*tata! sneak preview of what my room looks like.

Got my keys on friday after the whole orientation thing ended.
Was pretty much struggling to keep myself alive during e later part of it.
The sore throat and the high fever making me shiver in a cool room (means it hitting .
While others were wearing short sleeves i was wearing 2jackets.
Then thank God i had a lift back to hall from keith to get my keys before the hall office closes.
And the kind hearted xiao bai who fetched me home (:

Then when my parents got back home late at night,
They dragged the half alive me out to a 24hrs clinic.

Then shifted to hall on sunday.
Then had steamboat with e avars which was pretty fun.
We kinda stink up the whole tv lounge.
(but then again, originally there's already a weird smell there..we're just replacing it with food smell :P )

And i started class on monday.
Timetable is pretty ORHsome.
ive got 3 830am class.
and 3 that ends at 630pm.
=.="

And before all think that its fun and all.
I'm now down with a tons of readings, tutorials and essays.
Just in this first week of school.

I really don't know i can cope with this uni life.
sleeping at 3am then waking up at 7am for classes.
and all the hall activities and workload.
pretty scared, honestly.

and there's just this empty feeling when i look at my room.
from day 1 till now.




             

        

totally.

 

            

 

Currently on this book right now.
He wrote on the first page that:
this book is dedicated to the brave adults and children who gave up on pursuing perfections.



its terribly difficult for a woman.
seriously, lol.

        

I want to do better than that.


After like 2months of waiting,
I've got e results back.
it's either i go under the knife or i let it be till it wear and tear eventually.
And ya. i choose to let it be.

and no, that bad results didn't really pull me down that much.
Its just the million and one things that's on my mind that did the job.
or maybe, its just the time of the month :P






 

        


Sometimes, you just need the right people at the right time.
and no one else.